Friday, April 29, 2011


Mission hampir berjaya! ehehh, 3 hari tak stalk dia. sangat mnyeksakan :( but I have to strive for it! hihi, hope everything's gonna be okay. Someday, you'll know how much I have sacrifice. goodbye dearies

The feelings when you see someone you still have feelings for :(


Wednesday, April 27, 2011

what a day.

hey guys, seriously I dont feel like talking to anybody today. and I'M NOT EMOing, just tired. tired of what, I'm not sure. I just want to be a new me. to be a quiet girl like when I was in Form 1 (: I want to stop the bad things that I did before. And of course I'm still your friend, guys. dont misunderstanding. I stilll love you guys(:

And today, 27/4 I've got an agreement with Farihin Ufiya and Aisya Wahida.
 1. Stop stalking them until 27/5 (try first) *kalau tk kena puasa dua hari.
 2. tak boleh emo. and yes I'm not emoing.
 3. cannot mention their name. *saya dh berjaya hari ni :D

sebagai tnda perjanjian, farihin baling pensil box aku dr atas jatuh bawah. habeh rosak barang2 aku -,- ahah plus, diorg semua pergi library hari ni, hm, tp I tk pergi, sbb hm mcm biasalah. :'( *Ya Allah, tolonglah aku lupakan dia. Amin

Monday, April 25, 2011

Please stop hoping.

Cant anybody out there help me to stop hoping for him? tired enough. hm, semua perempuan dia layan okay. hm dah ah. I think I should stop right now.

 I just don't want to feel like this anymore. hm. okay bye

Wednesday, April 20, 2011


OMG! TOMORROW! 21st April 2011! Justin bieber, I wanna meet you so badly. pleaseeee I want to go. hm sedeh gila ni. nak p nak pi. :'(

I'll die :|


Ya Allah, sembuhkanlah beliau agar beliau dapat menjalani kehidupannya seperti biasa. Amin. risau sangat nii. hm, I dont feel like talking to anybody. I'm extremely worried now. Ya Allah, please help him. Tabahkan lah hatinya dan kuatkanlah semangatnya.Amin :'( I hope you'll be okay soon :|

AMIN :'(

Tuesday, April 19, 2011


please dont give me fake hopes :( Please let the little things I noticed mean what I hope they mean. Please, please, please. How do you start a conversation with someone you've been sharing blissful moments eye contact with for almost a year?...

~over-analyzing girl.

Friday, April 15, 2011


  • butterflies in your stomach when he/she is around.
  • constant blushing when talking to him/her.
  • stuttering and unable to form coherent words/thoughts when they are around.
  • giggling
  • constantly staring at them.
  • wanting to know everything about them.
  • smiling for a long time after talking to them. 
  • stalking (following) them.
  • telling everyone but the person.
  • writing letters to them on here.
  • listening to love songs and thinking of them.
  • hating vacations/weekends cause you don't get to see him/her.

I just cant sleep.

ohmai, I'm very happy. SERONOKNYA YA ALLAH (: I hope this is not just temporary. Enough of all this pain I had bear (': Please dream, please come true, Amin.

If I overestimated my heart,

Please tell me, heart.

With every small thing that happens
the hole gets bigger 
I've been strong for too long

Saturday, April 9, 2011


THANKS  :(     

                                                                                                                       ~miserable soul~

Wednesday, April 6, 2011

days past.

Sedeh sedeh sedeh kan kalau kawan kita sendiri buat macam tu kat kita? Hm,try to feel in once, then you will know. :( Anyway, I'm sorry kalau aku ni tak pernah jaga perasaan hmpa. I'm just a normal person who make mistakes. Sorry if you cant accept my mistakes. I'm not perfect. And yes,I'm weak. I'm easy to cry lately and I dont know why. It's hard to explain. I'd be lying if I said I was okay. :'|

Tuesday, April 5, 2011


It was just a fake dream.
That will never come true,
Its hard to tell your mind to stop loving,
Cause your heart still does,
Your smile and laugh,
reminds me a lot.
If it's wrong to love you,
Then my heart wont let me to be right.
Break my heart, destroy my soul,
leave me crying alone,
And I wont forget all those memories.